The night I cried myself to sleep was so terrible. I was not just feel upset, but my heart felt painful as well. Perhaps, we have built a kinda strong friendship before these, I just felt so guilty and afraid to lose him. Fortunately, he is willing to forgive me. I don't know how to describe how it feels, but millions of thank you, to him, for his kindness and love.
As I have mentioned before, he's such a busy guy with tons of works everyday. No matter how busy he is, he always try to make time for me. Now, I know how to differentiate sincerity. Those who love you sincerely will make time for you, no matter how busy he/she is. He always place my safety on the top of priorities. I guess I can understand why girls are going after him, as he is really almost a perfect guy.
Although he always scold me (politely, he gets worried to be true) that I trust people easily, and told me not to trust him completely as well. I don't know why, I know him not long indeed, but I just feel secure whenever he is around me. He's like a dad, a brother, a teacher, a best friend and a boyfriend as well.
We spent half day together yesterday. Had lunch at Queensbay and met his sister and bro-in-law. I really like Jean's smile, so beautiful. I can't wait to see her baby. :) hehe. We just went for groceries after lunch, Now, I realized that shopping for groceries can be so happy one. It makes us know each other more actually. Followed him to his shop lot which is still under renovation, no matter where he went to, he just check on me every 5 minutes I guess. I haven't met anyone so caring before, I'll try my best to reduce his worry, as I really wish to see him live freely and happily everyday.
We spent time to watch a movie 'Dear John'. It supposed to be a romance movie but somehow we just laughed at it. Coincidentally, there were so many similarities on us and the story. He just sat beside me, and I felt really comfortable and secure. Felt like a princess chewing the digestive biscuits while watching the movie. Hehe.
Left his place for dinner around 8pm at sushi king, he was not feeling well. That's the first time I realized that I would feel worried for someone after so long. I guess work and business stressed him out, so his blood pressure is going up and gastric keeps on attacking him. If time can be borrowed, I will just give all my free time to him, so that he can sleep well. Sigh.
This fella always look at me. I felt like pinching him already.
Dear John,
I know you will read this, but this is not everything. I wish, I can tell you more in person one day.
Don't laugh!! Don't smile!! Cause I can't see it now. >.<
With love,
Jessie
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